Existential penitential

I am wondering how many people in their late forties get their drive specially when they are alone and far away from family or have no family to speak of. I mean, what would be the motivation for people like that? Or more to the point - what would my motivation be? Maybe for some it would be the pursuit of success whatever their personal definition is. I have long ago defined success as that barrier where you have learned to be content with what you have. However, that definition is strongly being tested. I have a lot of deals in place to arrange this week - namely several mining start-up which may or may not work out, a property deal in Subic which looks optimistic. a power plant, three restaurant concepts which I am pitching to a private equity fund and last but not least a property deal in Cavite. I would really be happy to just get one of these off the ground. That said, let me talk about some people which I am placing a reliance on to push one of these deals. As a proof of concept - he is an abysmal failure already and he is driving me up the wall with his insane but entertaining stories. These are so out of place when he always pops these prattle during business meetings and trips. Call it a break on the proverbial gestalt switch whenever I am with this person. So now I feel a slight dread this coming week but I am keeping my hopes up.